Imthebiggestlionever

Madisyn Pavola

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She Is by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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She Is

I see her, she is so beautiful. On nights I am kept awake by demons of the dammed, I am breathless by the thought of her. I see her, she is so beautiful. When I am not living, but rather surviving, I can only think about her and it reminds me that my life has yet to become complete. I see her, she is so beautiful. Although I have varied myself into multiple problems she lies amongst the best memories And I saw her, and I thought to myself She is so beautiful.

Illiterate tongue of a spitter by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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Illiterate tongue of a spitter

To all-of-you: respect in full. To solitude in-all-our-grooves, to text to soul. To soul is calling-truce though truth is inevitable to clash. To soul is falling through, and all-of-you rep-that. So let's live without commitment, be free and-not-give-a-damn My lyrics' art-form, sub-par born but evolved. To 'soul' is through scars, thorns, cussed more to resolve. What's more: be tall. Be brave and fight-on All us fall, but the art-craft, paneled judges won't return my call Why wrong? we are free to speak and express. We all tried and spawned, an buffered tougher ways.

They say. by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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They say.

They say, religion will save you. God will see your pain and resurrect you. They say, you're confused. They say, honey, this is a phase. And as they repeat arrogance in such a slender slur, my mind will still be twisted around her because God, I am this way because of you! I am neither confused or going through a passage that has a light at the end. And if you can put a definition to LOVE, it better not start with gender! I am content with my being, and with whomever my heart swells for. I am happy with a woman because when she is delicately shimmering under the sun, I don't see what could possible be wrong with looking at her, and

I should learn by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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I should learn

I've come to the conclusion that nothing hurts more than trying so hard to be good enough and being replaced by someone so much better. You recall every effort every attempt to show them that there is nothing better than your smile or your laugh You remember every feeble struggle to make them understand that you want them to stay so bad. I've come to the conclusion that after I've realized that I will never be enough I always try again but I should just learn to give up when I really need to. I should learn to say fuck you when all they did was turn me around and push me away. Fuck you.

I am a contradiction by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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I am a contradiction

I self medicate with medication without a prescription. I shuffle in corners of concerts and airports. I am delirious, I am not here. I find myself to be most comfortable in sweaters too big for my figure. I am a ghost of a masterpiece that never made the front cover. I am the shadow of a suicide that no one recognized. I am not rare. I am not special. I am a mixture of the drug and the "coming down" effect. I am content with growing old alone. I am satisfied with nothing. I am a contradiction of no and yes.

My relationship with the world by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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My relationship with the world

my relationship with the world has expanded and left me wondering if we are all in for a massive burn out, if we will ever make a communal decision to retreat into the woods without worrying about pinterest or pornhub or privacy settings: it would be nice to fuck under the stars and see the stars and make fun of it all later. but its not simple to retreat from prejudice judgement. we are lining up for our final vows that won't mean anything in less than three weeks. my conjoined twin died in the womb and yet still continues to talk with me and I can still feel its pain when the weather changes and someone is screaming at their garden be

No I haven't by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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No I haven't

I have sat on curbs beside busy streets and wondered how far my body would roll until it stopped. I have looked down from the tallest cliff in my small town and wondered if at least one of the 2,297 people would give a flying fuck if I jumped. I have lied in bed countless nights and the restlessness has never subsided. I have sat in pouring rain and hoped for lighting to strike me. But I never wanted to die.

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Illiterate tongue of a spitter by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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I should learn by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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I should learn

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I am a contradiction

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My relationship with the world

No I haven't by Imthebiggestlionever, literature

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No I haven't

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Oct 12
United States
Deviant for 13 years
imthebiggestlionever.tumblr.com
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I want this to be a place for you to come and hate everything you see.

M.
18
Central Oregon.
Self medicated.
Pop rocks, Star Wars, Alex Pardee, instrumentals, libraries, tattoo shops, sushi bars, record stores, skate parks, sleep deprivation, mind-numbing volumes, monotone speech, wretched appearance, nail biting, well-organized faggot.

Common era irregular.

Brutality
always
prevails

Favourite Visual Artist

Alex Pardee

Favourite Movies

Fight Club, Donnie Darko, Manic, Choke, Layer Cake

Favourite TV Shows

Supernatural, The Walking Dead, SKINS

Favourite Writers

Chuck Palahniuk

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Imthebiggestlionever

Jul 19, 2014

Purity.

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Hey there shattered people. I'm Lauralyn. The girlfriend.                As I sit on her bed, and watch her so peaceful. So innocent and vulnerable, I can't help but smile inside. Red Hot Chili Peppers is playing, as well as the white noise of a little back fan perched on the window sill.    I've never had someone like her in my life. Someone just as shattered and lost as I am. Guilt lingers in her head for things that weren't in her control. Scars of the past shine through her like a gold watch hitting the sunlight, just enough to catch your eye, but not enough really make you pay attention to the crisp details.                   I